How ComicBookMovie & The Users Saved My Life

Hey everyone, I am Khan but my real name is not really Khan. My real name is Roby D’Ottavi. I’m a sixteen year old from Australia. This is my story, this is a story about how YOU the CBM users saved my life, enjoy!

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By Khan - 7/26/2013


Hello everyone, some of you know me as Khan, the most active basic user on the site. But in case you did not know, my name is not actually Khan. My real name is Roby D’Ottavi. I’m a sixteen year old from Australia. This is my story, this is a story on how YOU the CBM users saved my life, enjoy!

Now I know we recently had a article about a young gentleman who got one of his books published, and if he is in fact reading this article I want to congratulate him, his story had a happy ending. But that’s where my story, and his story diverge. My story really hasn’t ended, as I write this article I am not certain of my future. I haven’t told anyone this, not even PunyParker, who is one of my best friends. But around August last year, I became depressed. I know depression is extremely common nowadays especially around the age I am, but some of these kids who experience depression don’t have the help I did. But enough about the ending of my story, let’s go to the start.


My love for Spider-Man began when I was three years old.


It all started in August of last year. I was on top of the world, I’d become popular, girls liked me and I was the “IT” guy of the school. And it’s amazing how quickly the happiness of being on top can change into sorrow of the past. My world was turned upside down in late August when my parents got a divorce. I knew this was bound to happen, as arguments between the two had been running rampant and I was getting sick of it. During one of the fights between my parents, I found myself locked in my bedroom with my iPhone, I immediately went into my Videos app and started watching The Amazing Spider-Man. I needed strength and I needed hope, that film was my strength and shield. The following days of the divorce were not as good as I had hoped, I went to school feeling terrible and everyday I thought of running away. But I persisted.

Around September of 2012, I had met a girl. Her name was Danielle. She was the most beautiful girl on the face of the Earth (in my eyes at least); she was the Gwen Stacy to my Peter Parker. I remember the first time I asked her out, it was identical to the way Peter asked out Gwen in The Amazing Spider-Man, she walked off smiling as Coldplay’s “Til Kingdom Come” started ringing in my ears. I hadn’t been on ComicBookMovie.com since July, when TASM came out. So around September I started using the site again, posting fan-fiction and such. Danielle had become my girlfriend, but like Gwen Stacy; she was taken out of my life. She did not die (thank God) but she dumped me. All my hopes and dreams shattered in those remarkable words she spoke “I’m sorry” she said after she delivered the final blow. That happened in January of this year. And like the divorce, I was back where I started… Depressed and out of hope.

At 16, I still love Spider-Man


From January to March, I thought of ways to kill myself. Suicide became a growing thought and my friends and family worried about my health. My whole world had crumbled apart in a matter of months. But then, something remarkable happened. I logged in to CBM.com. It’s almost funny; how I went from being this depressed teen to this new man I am today. The chat room became a place of help and strength for me as such users as The Captain gave me some words of wisdom. As I got better, I started posting more and more news/articles on CBM. Every time I read a comment that said “Great find Khan” or “Another great article Khan”; I remembered how I would not be here if it weren’t for CBM and Spider-Man. Without this site and the wonderful users, I probably wouldn’t be here right now.

As for my Mother’s storyline, she met a nice guy called Dino. He is one of the nicest guys I have ever met; my younger brother and sister both love him, as do I. So I guess what I’m getting at is that, everyone helps. Every little thing helps, every compliment you give me helps. I want to thank all the CBM Users and the CBM Editors for everything they have done for me as a User and a friend. If I have pissed off any user in my time at CBM, I’m truly sorry (That’s you Josh). This article was not an attempt to get you users to feel bad for me this is just me telling my story. So thanks gents, have a good one!

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Pending - 7/26/2013, 1:22 AM
Nice story. It's awesome to have a character you can relate to on suuuuch a close level, site's awesome too.
Jollem - 7/26/2013, 1:58 AM
RedHood13 - 7/26/2013, 2:44 AM

TheSonOfKrypton - 7/26/2013, 3:19 AM


It's nice to see that we as users can still make a difference. Glad to see someone of my age who has to strength to deal with these issues, keep up the good work!
DutchMovieFan - 7/26/2013, 4:00 AM
I wish you all the strenght you can muster, in case you need it in the future.

Best of luck,

T. Bos
JorEllinator - 7/26/2013, 4:19 AM
Well done, now you need to make us a cake to thank us.
Only joking, but if you want to you can.
That's a great story, it shows what a great community we have!
TheAbaryMan369 - 7/26/2013, 5:32 AM
Nice story Khan. There's something about this site that's different from other sites. Despite the trolls and constant bickering, this site is special.
Starkasm - 7/26/2013, 5:40 AM
Nice story. You are definitely not alone. Comic books and movies are my fav form of escape. I dno where I'd be without them.
NBAfanaddict - 7/26/2013, 5:49 AM
Awesome story KHAAAAAAAANNNNNN (i seriously, couldn't help myself :D

I had a close friend who committed suicide last september ( we were both 18 at the time), so I'm sensitive to that kind of stuff. Really glad you were able to get off the proverbial edge. Keep up the great articles. I'm looking forward to another :10 Must Haves" very soon :D
DukeAcureds - 7/26/2013, 5:52 AM
You're only sixteen? I had no idea. You're very emotionally mature, for your age.
Heartbreak is the worst thing in the world, and when you're your age it consumes you very quickly. But, y'know, you're a good looking kid and you've got some fvcking cool years ahead of you. Late teens, early twenties, etc. In fact, if you don't get married and have kids, all of your twenties will just be an extention of your late teens (but y'know, with more experience). Happiness ain't started, yet, Khan, old buddy. Just you wait. Life's gonna get fun.
Deadpoolwithcomicsans - 7/26/2013, 5:52 AM
This is a great story. It helps me out to know when something as simple as a website has saved a life.
DukeAcureds - 7/26/2013, 5:53 AM
Sorry to hear that, @NBAfanaddict.
bagadoosh - 7/26/2013, 5:54 AM
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Sometimes life seems like a battle , as long as your living your winning . I'm happy you have found comfort here , this site has gotten me through more than 1 heartbreak , so I completely get what your saying . Just remember suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem . In other words if you feel like shit just wait...
SpectacularJoShFest - 7/26/2013, 5:57 AM
This was moving, I've been up and down myself and I know what you went through, keep it up, man, you've got plenty of friends here and they can really help you out, in fact, they too helped me out.
Live long and pro.....oops...wrong name...you're KHAAAAAAAAAAN now. Oh anduh...stay SPECTACULAR!
ComicFan1134 - 7/26/2013, 5:58 AM
Awesome, Glad Everything Turned out Well!
ABLEE337 - 7/26/2013, 6:03 AM
Glad you're part of the CBM community.
You are among friends here.
Peace.
SuperbatSpider1003 - 7/26/2013, 6:04 AM
Wow khan great story :D
M3T4LL0 - 7/26/2013, 6:11 AM
Seriously one of the best articles I have read on this site EVER!!! Khan, I keep seeing your articles and the quality and integrity you put behind them really shocks me for someone who is not only as young as you are, but for someone that has been through as much as you. My life hasn't been so peachy keen either. Lost my father in 2008 along with my Aunt and my Great Grandmother, my mother being diagnosed with COPD and Dementia, trying to start fresh out of a 3 year relationship in a new place, life has been throwing me curve balls left and right. If it wasn't for my friends, family, and my hobbies I would be a broken man. Comics have been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. My favorite heroes have and still give me hope and inspiration to always strive for something more. This article really lifted my spirits (I'm sitting in a hospital room waiting for my 1st daughter to be born as I type this.) Khan, I will be looking out for some more of your posts. Keep your head up and stay a true believer.

Your Friend at CBM.com,
M3T4LL0
Cleriklynn - 7/26/2013, 6:11 AM
Thanks for sharing, Khan! You are an inspiration even for the older generations here. I don't comment on here very much, but I'm here every day. Yours is one of the opinions I enjoy reading. (Even if I don't agree with you on every point!)
HOTSHOT - 7/26/2013, 6:12 AM
Although not a fan of ASM, I agree with you. I was always this little nerd in high school who got beat up a lot and spent most of his time reading comics. (Wait, nothing's changed after high school) Particulalry Spidey comic titles such as Amazing, Spectacular, Ultimate and 2099. Peter was just like me, bullied, angry and felt alone. When he decided to do good, helping even those who hurt him, I was inspired not to give up on life, on people.

"I believe there's a hero in all of us that keeps us righteous, gives us strength and then finally allows us to die with pride. Even if sometimes we have to give up the things ee want the most....even our dreams."


Stay strong dude. Remember, be the hero. You're not alone :)
hush - 7/26/2013, 6:15 AM
Mental health issues are way too 'hush hush' for my liking (no pun intended) and the more people speak about them openly, which is incredibly brave, the more we can build an understanding.

Hang in there bro, remember the night is always darkest before the dawn.

Harry aka Hush
GoILL - 7/26/2013, 6:17 AM
Damn Khan I could've sworn that you were over 16 just from how you act on here. I'm glad everything has been working out for you having gone through depressing things myself over the years I can relate how bad it sucks. Also want to say sorry about your friend NBAfanaddict.
soda9 - 7/26/2013, 6:19 AM
@Khan So you're Robby! Haha, I remember you started following me on twitter (cgcoates232) and I kept thinking "who the hell is this guy???". Anyways, great story, my man! Keep it up with those editorials, love reading them!
charlie2094 - 7/26/2013, 6:23 AM
Great story, glad every things turned out well! :) I knew people who were also suicidal, so know it's a serious matter. Luckily they turned out ok though and are happy now. Glad you managed to persist, everything turns out ok soon enough, sure you'll still find your Gwen.I felt similar feelings with one of my ex's I was with for almost two years but trust me, you'll find that person eventually :)

I myself have gone through similar ups and downs, and have used this site (and such things as Instagram) to sort of escape for a while, to escape into a different world I'm excited about. It truly is a great place, once you get past some trolling and such :P

Off topic, but interesting to hear about how TASM helped you. You always hear people talk about how Peter's a relatable character and this just goes to show it. I love TASM, more than many I know, and maybe that's the reason for it, as like you, I saw Peter as a character to look to, inspire hope and the such.

Anyway, great read! See your name around this site really often and you contribute a lot so, you're with friends on here :)
bagadoosh - 7/26/2013, 6:23 AM


now that I've gotten my serious post out of the way .... lets dance
TheManFromMars - 7/26/2013, 6:24 AM
From a fellow mildly depressed guy (on medication), I send cheers to you @Khan.
DukeAcureds - 7/26/2013, 6:24 AM
Oh and Khan? Gwen's not the only girl for Pete, y'know. With great power comes a whole hell of a lot of pussy, m'man.
MJ will before you know it. Keep one eye on the redheads. I know I always do.
Havenless - 7/26/2013, 6:28 AM
I demand more blood and violence out of your life.

You do realize that prison offers free room and board, right?
soda9 - 7/26/2013, 6:28 AM
@DukeAcureds This!
fettastic - 7/26/2013, 6:30 AM
When you're 16, everything is the end of the world. Not that your parents divorcing and getting dumped aren't bad, of course they are. But as you grow older things can be seen in a broader context and it's easier to see the silver linings.

Dude, you're going to get so much puss in your life. You will look back on your "Gwen" and think "God, why was I so wrapped up in her?"
Banner - 7/26/2013, 6:31 AM
I hope I haven't offended you at some point, about your Booster Gold article I guess. ;-p
sahin86 - 7/26/2013, 6:32 AM
thewonderer - 7/26/2013, 6:34 AM
Khan, as much as I admire this piece, the people who comment here are sick and twisted perverts (and I'm sure these people will respond quite respectively)

The sentimentality is great and touching but you're posting this on a site where people want directors to die when they make a CBM choice they don't like.

RUN AWAY, KHAN, RUN!
fortycals - 7/26/2013, 6:34 AM
Good article Khan. Touched me in a personal way,pause, cause my little sister committed suicide a while back. I floated inbetween rage, depression, and guilty feelings for a long time. Over ten years later at it still hurts. Keep your head up man, and don't let the shit life throws at you get in your eyes.

Never would have thought you were just sixteen, cause you seem more mature than some of the grown men around here.
Melkaticox - 7/26/2013, 6:37 AM
Woah, Khan is just 16?!
Dude...you're as old as I am!

I guess all I can say is...I'm glad you're still alive, I actually enjoy your articles quite a lot. I considered suicide a few years ago, too, I was having a bad time...but things got better. Things ALWAYS get better, which is why suicide is a pretty bad option to...even consider...

@NBAfanaddict My condolences.
thewonderer - 7/26/2013, 6:37 AM
In all seriousness though, Khan, as a 19 year old muslim I sympathize.

I've actually had crushed on 3 girls in my lifetime. 2 of them flat out rejected me and the other laughed at the notion.

I found solace in the amazing manga/anime ONE PIECE. I'd recommend checking it out bro. Anytime I'm sad, I go to One Piece.

Also, watch the Muppets! Sounds cheesy but "Lifes A Happy Song" always keeps me happy!
thewonderer - 7/26/2013, 6:38 AM
fortycals, oh man I'm so sorry. That must have been heartbreaking :(
mtn987 - 7/26/2013, 6:42 AM
Glad you're here.
GoILL - 7/26/2013, 6:43 AM
Sorry about your sister fortycals.
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